:: Opportunities ::

so... I've been meaning to write about 'this' for quite a while, but also wanted to keep it hush-hush till it was all sorted out.

And then when it was, I made myself promise that I wouldn't blog about it till after I had done my report on 'this'... let's call it an 'opportunity' for now. And procrastinator that I am... its been dragged on and on... and well, I just sumitted my report! (note - it was a week late!)

So, anyhow, about opportunities... I've been reading quite a bit on it, and people who hv been offered it.. and all that stuff... that one should grab it by the horns, and hold on for dear life! Take each and every single one as it comes... Don't let it slip through your fingers, etc.. But in the face of it, there are alot more questions and considerations involved than just saying yes! and then winging it.

Growing up, I used to think 'wah! so glam! get posted overseas to work. how cool is that?'... and that if something like that were ever to be offered to me, I would take it in a blink of an eye. No what-ifs, no dragging my heels. 'Yes, thank you very much. My bags were packed 3 days ago. When do I go?' type of things. Ah! To be young, and stupid.

Well, I've been offered it. 'It' being a permanent post in my Hong Kong office. And although my first reaction was more or less in line with the above... after fully digesting it all, and coming back down to earth and reality, all the other questions started popping out. Questions that one never seems to ask oneself in daydreams... I'm going there all alone, no family, no friends.. uprooting my whole life and starting over... What if I fall sick? What if I hate it? What if...?

Bizarre, isn't it? Anyway, I'm due there sometime mid January. And have stuff to do and sort out before then. I'm excited, and scared out of my pants, and everything in between! I'm not saying no. Noone really expected me to say no. I could never live with myself if I had said no. So I'm going, with a somewhat heavy heart. But I take comfort in the fact that Hong Kong is only 4 hours away, so it's easy to come home, and even easier for everyone to come visit!

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Update:
I've just re-read the post, and I think it came out all wrong! Don't get me wrong. I am excited about going to Hong Kong, and I am looking forward to being a properly independant woman, starting a new life, in a new country. I just know that I will be homesick, and will miss my family and friends and the familiar. You know I'm not a big fan of change. So this is just something I have to sort out myself. Grow up, and deal, Lynette!